So traveling is basically my favorite thing. I would say second only to family.
Yup family, travel, and coffee. No not in that order every day...it may change. The BEST thing is when I can have all three.
So here is the question folks? Should I be responsible and miss out on going to my top-favorite places of all time (England) and see family and eat crunchy yet soft, warm, slathered in butter Warburtons crumpets and tea on Walcot Ave? Should I miss out on chats with the most incredible, wise, hardworking, accepting and funny aunt? Miss out on walks with the chubby and angelic "bubs" as he is fondly called. Miss out on Britsh-isms from Uncle Gwei? Miss out on hearing the kids play, yell, practice music all with their perfect accents? Miss out on shopping in London? Miss out on sitting in their back "garden" as I feel the chilly air bite my legs and arms? Miss out on buying ALL the Cadbury and the amazing alternative to half and half that is the only option for my coffee, double cream. A wonderful family in ordinary life that isn't my life... so it's all the better at taking me away from mine...
So why am I not going? If all those reasons (although very personal I hope you can get the gist of why I want to go) aren't good enough what's the other factor?
MONEY.
Isn't it always though? At least in this stage of life I am in it really feels that way. Then yes I know, later the cycle repeats when I have kids and different expenses out the wazoo.
I want to go so badly and it's haunting me because ever since I thought of going on this impromptu trip 6 days ago I have wanted to so badly! Every day I dream of what it would be like to be back in Luton with some of my favorite people and be so far away from my troubles and doubts. BUT it's not responsible.
I still don't have a new roommate so my rent is about to basically double. Last time I did a review of my finances I hadn't taken into account new expenses like therapy as well. I need to come up with a lot more money so England isn't a good spur of the moment decision.
The tickets are sooo affordable though! (Okay click the link and try out Kayak, but don't buy them all because I still may find a roommate last second and go!!!) This will be therapy in itself to go have a break after a crazy and stressful term of school and life... but do my pros outweigh my cons?
What with moving to my apartment, etc. I don't know where I put my passport after returning from Europe in the summer-so that's a problem. Also the irresponsibility of it all. It is a curse most days, but I guess being cautious and a planner sometimes has its virtues (if virtues means not spending all your money on travel). I think the conclusion I have come to over these past days of dreaming and hoping is that I can't honestly go if a roommate doesn't fall into my lap for November without serious anxiety. IF ONE DOES THOUGH, PEOPLE WATCH OUT AND CATCH ME ON THE NEXT, CHEAPEST FLIGHT TO GATWICK!
Moral: While I haven't lived through going or not going quite, yet as I am still in the deciding phase, but mostly the moral this time is to make a plan. I wish I was more spontaneous but there are limits and making sure you can pay the rent somehow, someway, is important for mental sanity. It sucks but there is *technically* always another flight. Pay rent first....then travel.....;(
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